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so she says;






talk, a little.
Saturday, February 24, 2007

my teevee is resting. so i am here. (:

dont bother message-er me. i am not with my pc though i seemed to sign in almost 24/7 lately.

prolly i cant be bothered with anything. i seemed to have a number of things on my list unmarked. i didnt wanna step out of my house for food. just grab whatever's in front of my eyes to feed myself and bottles of water. i like this 'i-dont-have-to-do-anything feeling'. i dont care if i look the least good. messy hair + pjy. i have guests over my place yet i dont even doll up. lay at the couch with my remote till daybreak. i enjoy every single second of it.

i forget its saturday. is it supposed that i should head out? somewhere? there's nowhere i really wished i am. he called with surprised i'm home. why is it so? can someone explain?

i swear i wanna get another set of teevee and player.

did i mention i felt embarrassed to eat while i am walking? its like man.. you dont do that. how fugly. i realised i had this problem. even the thought of Q-ing for milk tea, i feel uncomfortable. how weird. i mean i dont know. i always had this problem of buying Old Chang Kee and bubble tea. i felt awkward to wait in line. how yucky they feel once it goes right down inside my body. i think i would caught dead doing that. i mean so far, no one caught me. ahaa. i was reflecting during this long break. i realised my current working environment, is really bringing me down. i dont wanna become a fugly OU BA SAN, like those people. like they eat these all time, and i realised, to my horror, I SEEMED TO HAVE SUDDEN CRAVING. i already turn down food like that. eeyeer. the thought of it makes me really sick. those fats. those smell.

prolly my clan is right. why do i have to let myself suffer in the environment which i dont even enjoy a single bit? or did i really suffer that much in their eyes? peeps used the word bully. i thought i would collasped with laughter. but it slapped me how serious they take my grumblings. they often end it with, "the most you marry him, SLK and apartment is yours!!! he is crazy 'bout you!!" i think everyone is nuts. i can be myself. (: and if you are reading this, i wont date. (: unless miracle appear. so no more talking about material. i will slap your face.

okay.

i just need to talk.

so you listen.

dont bug me with anymore advices.

my delivery's here.

cj out.

@8:58 PM